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Jun. 13th, 2006 @ 07:26 pm
when you kiss me, do you still taste her
are you thinking of, are you thinking of me
with your lips pressed tightly up against his skin
does your body still scream my name

May. 28th, 2006 @ 08:14 pm
Tomorrow is the day.
It's been a good year.

Apr. 25th, 2006 @ 01:38 pm
I'm a bad person.
and an even worst friend.

Mar. 16th, 2006 @ 04:34 pm
I didn't wanna be her friend anymore. So I said somethings to upset her. I didn't want to but it was easier for me. I just didn't want to talk with her anymore. I don't wanna be her fag friend what I mean is like hang out with her go shopping watch movies whatever. It would of sucked. I just couldn't having feelings for her. So I did something stupid like push her away. I made it so that she wouldn't wanna talk to me anymore. Whats the worst of this is that I did it without even knowing. I guess deep down inside I will always be that jerk/asshole no matter how hard I try to change. I feel bad I do still wanna be her friend and all. It's just that I'm a coward. a punk ass kid. I wish I could take it all back... but I can't this is something I will have to live with. I really do wanna take this all back. I mean I was still happy talking to her. I still like the time together. No it's not the same and it is all my fault no one else's. I don't know what to do anymore. maybe it is better that we don't talk. I know she always knew how I felt about her. And sometimes I believe that when I would talk to her and ask her out, I would make her feel uneasy. It's like if she would say yes or be nice only because she didn't wanna make me sad. As if she couldn't say no. At least I wont put her through that anymore. My god after all that was said and done... i'm still putting her first. I wounder if work will be the same. I know I will miss her smile. When she looks at me she as nothing to smile about anymore.

Feb. 21st, 2006 @ 09:28 pm
I'm so fucked up.

Feb. 16th, 2006 @ 03:46 am
Plans for today

1. Get up
2. Eat something
3. Go to work
4. Work do a half ass job
5. Watch Date Movie with Christina
6. Drink Denae's booze during Date Movie
7. See what ends up happening

Feb. 16th, 2006 @ 03:33 am
New phone came in today... it's about time

Feb. 12th, 2006 @ 06:28 pm
Last night was a cool night. The party wasn't that good, but I mean they did have lots of booze. I got fucked up good. I don't even remember how I got home. I don't know who drove me, I don't know how I got in the house. All I remember is getting my mom's cell phone and calling up Christina. We talked to each other for about 3 hours or so. I think form 2 a.m. - 6 a.am. I guess for about 4 hours or so.


I got up today around 3 in the afternoon....lol

Feb. 9th, 2006 @ 12:28 pm
"True Friend Is Someone Who Sees The Pain In Your Eyes, While Everyone Else Believes The Smile On Your Face"

I like this song Feb. 7th, 2006 @ 02:50 am
Got a big plan, this mindset maybe its right
At the right place and right time, maybe tonight
And the whisper or handshake sending a sign
Wanna make out and kiss hard, wait nevermind

Late night, and passing, mention it flipped her
Best friend, who knows saying maybe it slipped
But the slip turns to terror and a crush to light
When she walked in, he throws up, believe its the fright

Its cute in a way, till you cannot speak
And you leave to have a cigarette, your knees get weak
An escape is just a nod and a casual wave
Obsessed about it, heavy for the next two days

It's only just a crush, it'll go away
It's just like all the others it'll go away
Or maybe this is danger and you just don't know
You pray it all away but it continues to grow

I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, and close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close
Soft breasts, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear

I want to f*cking tear you apart

Then he walked up and told her, thinking that he'd passed
And they talked and looked away a lot, doing the dance
Her hand brushed up against his, she left it there
Told him how she felt and then they locked in a stare

They took a step back, thought about it, what should they do
Cause theres always repercussions when you're dating in school
But their lips met, and reservations started to pass
Whether this was just an evening or a thing that would last

Either way he wanted her and this was bad
He wanted to do things to her it was making him crazy
Now a little crush turned into a like
And now he wants to grab her by the hair and tell her

I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, and close your eyes girl
So lovely, it feels so right

I want to hold you close
Soft breasts, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I want to f*cking tear you apart
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